Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.
Post kalini nak bercerita tentang pengalaman melahirkan anak yang pertama pada 11 Jun 2019, tiberr haha. Actually I’ve been wanting to put it into writing since a long time ago, tapi itulah macam tak jumpa medium yang sesuai, Facebook is too public, Instagram tak cukup space. Terlupa pula ada blog.
So sebenarnya its an unplanned pregnancy lah tapi masyaallah it turned out to be a very huge blessing Alhamdulillah! Berkahwin ketika posting ketiga housemanship, plan asalnya nak pregnant time last posting macamtulah since tahu-tahu je lah housemanship punya struggle ni macam mana kan. So at least bila dah last posting dah pro sikit dan beranak masa dah MO, konon best sikit la culture dia. But Allah knows best!
Sebulan lepas kahwin tu tiba-tiba ada satu minggu ni asyik pedih ulu hati dan nausea je ingatkan gastritis lah macam biasa, tak suspect apa-apa pun since masa tu tengah waktu period and ada spotting. Macam rare sikit sebab brownish spotting je bukan flow macam biasa. Then sampai 5 hari takboleh focus kerja langsung sebab nausea yang luar biasa so pergi lah ke Icare – clinic for the hospital staffs. I told the MO to just prescribe me with the gastritis medication, she agreed without asking more. And I also told her that I just got married last month but I’m on my period now – just to rule out pregnancy la kot. Knowing that, she insisted for me to test for UPT. I remembered vividly telling her “impossible lah boss, we’re being very careful” HAHA – calendar and barrier method alone for someone with uneven menstruation cycle. That’s very genius ehem.
Then I continue working that day, seeing patients with surgical complaint in emergency department. In between, I took one UPT strip from there and tadaaaa – clearly positive. Say hello to motherhood!
I swear it was never easy – the journey was full with tears; both sorrow and joy. For me housemanship is bearable and there’s no reason why you should defeat it – if you’re single or married with no kid. I don’t want to go into details on how miserably heart breaking the days were – but one thing for sure, at the end of those days, knowing there’s a tiny little creature growing soundly in my womb made me feel alive and resilient again. You’re the reason of my survival, my son. I’m forever thankful to you. Love you!
Moving forward, it was really hard on the first trimester but second was quite enjoyable. All those nauseas, vomiting, fatigue and so much more downsides of the pregnancy were gone. I enjoyed foods so much that I gained total of 22kg throughout my pregnancy. Jangan tiru aksi ini! I felt so rebellious when they (nurses/drs) advised me to control my diet, because I simply CANNOT. I’ve never eaten this much through my entire life and it feels amazing. No regrets at all. I’m just feeding my baby, ehh. Alhamdulillah antenatally uneventful cuma anemic sikit la Hb tak sampai 10 pun, sebab memang tak makan iron pun, tak tahan nausea dia sebab takleh nak function at work huhu. Pun jangan tiru aksi ini please! I’ve tried several types of iron – all didn’t work for me. So I just depended on iron-rich foods je.
By the time kena decide kat mana nak deliver, of course no HJTS on the list. Gila pa kawan-kawan sendiri sambut, tak sanggup iolls. And disebabkan all of my siblings including me were delivered in private hospital so rasa nak ke private laa but since my MIL & SIL advise to go to government, lebih selamat, yeah true enough, so we decided to choose PPUM – tapi private wing. I can’t remember the program, tapi kalau orang biasa kena bayar dalam 2k kot, government staffs can just use their GL. Sempat pergi 2x follow up. Jauh jugak sebenarnya dari HTJS tapi macam redah jelaa. Teringat masa buat 32w scan (kot), detail sikit dari KK biasa, once MO tu confirmkan baby all normal no cleft palate etc rasa legaaa tersangat-sangat sebab tbh sepanjang pregnancy agak risau part tu since tak amik folic acid 3months prior kan and masa early pregnancy tu dapat tahu pregnant pun masa 6weeks, so dah missed out the most crucial time for folic acid tu. Orang lain punya la buat detail scan/3d/4d/5d bagai, kitorang relax je gi KK guna ultrasound buruk je haha.
So masa tu 10 June 2019 dah 39w+2, kerja PM shift 7am-9pm. Tanak ambil cuti awal sebab nak spend 3 months leaves dengan baby, oncall pun still macam biasa. Mengah mak. Seminggu dua awal tu dah rasa ada contraction sikit-sikit tapi semua braxton hicks jela. Kerja macam biasa je balik pun sharp je rasanya sebab dah settle kerja. Cuma pulun sambil study sebab esok nak assessment. Rasa macam confident je takdelah cuak sangat ke apa cewah. Dah sampai rumah asyik rasa nak terkencing je, dekat 4-5 kali kot. Pukul 12am tengah tidur tiba-tiba rasa contraction yang kerap, tapi sakit still bearable. Malas nak kejut husband sebab macam primigravida kan, takkan la rasa sikit terus nak beranak. Kawan-kawan pesan jangan pergi hospital awal sangat sebab nanti kena tunggu lama. Tapi macam eh tak berhenti-berhenti pulak sakit ni. Husband pun terbangun sendiri dengar kita dok “oh eh oh eh” (faham ke bunyi camne tu haha). Dia pun pujuk pergi hospital lol kena pujuk siap, kita pun okaylah pergi check je kat HTJS lepastu baru pergi PPUM kalau ada os opening.
Sampai dalam pukul 1am macamtu, haa sudah kawan-kawan laki aku oncall haha annoying betul. Terus cakap kat diorang “kau pergi jauh-jauh eh” lolz. Kat PAC, mintak tolong nurse checkkan, ” Dah 8cm ni dr mushi kepala baby dah kat bawah ni” .Terkejut wehh dah kenapa nak kena beranak kat sini kee. Sedih sikit la masa tu sebab macam dah penat-penat gi follow up PPUM kan haha sempatt. Cek lagi second time terus dah full 10cm.
Terus la di push ke labour room, sempat senyum-senyum kat nurses kat situ ” Hai kak ingat saya tak”. Sebab aku posting first kt O&G dah setahun setengah berlalu. Ada sorang akak nurse cakap ” eh kau biar betul os fully boleh senyum-senyum” .
Tula pelik jugak tak sure orang lain macam mana tapi aku rasa sakit contraction ni macam 7/10 la lebih kurang, mungkin kalau duration tu panjang yang buat orang kata sakit sangat tu. And lagi satu sebab contraction ni datang dan pergi, bukan continuously, sebab aku pernah kena appendicitis, yang tu memang 10/10. Sakit dia macam Allahu tak tahu nak describe haha.
Ok sambung, masuk labour room terus push, dalam setengah jam lepastu lahirlah seorang bayi lelaki 3.59kg. Berat rupanya budak ni yela kalau nak dibandingkan dengan size mak nya yang comel ni. Baby keluar je terus hilang semua jenis sakit-sakit time pregnancy. Syukur Alhamdulillah baby keluar terus menangis, terus ku lega dan terus ku rasa penat gila-gila punya haha. Sangat-sangat bersyukur husband ada di sisi sepanjang proses tu. Dan yang paling penting sekali yang sambut tu Dr Joanne, my favourite MO masa posting tu, memang dia yang selalu bagi kata-kata semangat aku, yang selalu backup aku, yang aku still contact even dah habis posting. Memang timing terbaik sangat Allah nak bagi tu. Walaupun ada jugak dia ugut aku masa tengah beranak “Mushi you better push properly if not I vacuum je ni” HAHA. First time kott mana lah reti tapi lepas dia cakap je tu terus aku push sampai keluar HAHA.
Masa jahit episiotomy okay lagi sebab dapat ubat laloq entonox, tapi lepastu sementara nak tunggu staff hantar aku naik ward, lama jugak sebab diorang tertidur hmmm sabor jele. Tu aku tak kesah sangat tapi I was so weak and I need help to adjust my body position to breastfeed my child but there’s no one there OMG sedih gila sebab kita nak bergerak 1 cm pun takboleh sakit sangat-sangat, its a bone pain bukan sakit tang jahit tu. Bone pain tu sampai sebulan lebih sakit dia yang buat aku takleh nak gerak sangat. I don’t know what it is, tak explore pun lols. So dekat 5 jam weh tunggu diorang nak bawak naik ward dengan baby tak minum setitik pun lagi, aku takut hypoglycemia je dia dah la hampir macrosomic. Aku tengok je baby dengan pandangan sayu bernafas tak lagi budak ni sedih weh bila ingat balik. Naik ward pun dapat bilik selesa la jugak 4 orang satu bilik tapi jauh dari nurses la, so kena buat sorang-sorang jugak semua benda. Husband boleh datang time visiting hours je. Struggle gila dengan baby tak pandai menyusu nya, dengan kena tukar berak baby sendiri dah la tak reti and yang paling penting sebab masa tu sakit sangat-sangat. Nasib baik 5pm same day dah boleh discharge.
I was so traumatize going to government hospital, I mean for first child la, sebab kita noob sangat masa tu kan. I really really wish my husband was there to help me and I know he really wanted to be there too tapi disebabkan the hospital policy kan. My husband ni dah la memang jenis takboleh tengok kita ni sakit or susah sikit, dia takkan biarkan. Sepanjang pregnancy, dia akan bawak makanan masuk bilik suruh I makan atas katil je, mintak je nak makan apa dia akan belikan, balik kerja dia akan urutkan satu badan, housechores semua memang dia buatlaa, huhu I’m gonna make one special post about him, memang lelaki kiriman Tuhan buatku. TQ Abang!
Okay setakat tu dulu panjang nya post kali ni wow I’m getting my rhythm back I think? Ok bye assalamualaikum wbt.
Ummiakhyar 